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Wednesday, 31 March 2010

Sorry. I really didnt know. I know I'm lacking in many ways and i didnt expect to find out this way. I have mixed feelings now. I know I'm not sensitive enough to others. So self centred. So selfish. But I'm human. Please let me try my best to be better. I'm sorry. Give me a chance.. :(

what we could have been, 10:06 pm.
Monday, 29 March 2010

Junsu oppa! Can i ask you for a favour? If you are coming Singapore, please drag jae out of Korea or Japan to Singapore. I will buy yourall lots of hainanese chicken rice. Haha. I dont know what other Singapore food you like but yeah. Please, thank you. I know I'm not the only one who want this.

what we could have been, 10:26 pm.
Saturday, 27 March 2010

Peer pressure. The Reason why many teens commit crimes.
I am stressed and confused. My parents are not supportive. There's no other way out. I hate this!

what we could have been, 10:33 pm.

despite knowing i will get hurt continuing, i still move forward.

what we could have been, 8:47 pm.



i think this is a small part of the piece.
it seems short.

what we could have been, 3:45 pm.



i like the way they make eye contact with the camera.
taeyeon!

what we could have been, 3:03 pm.

failed my mock nafa:(
cant play floorball with the rest of my class:( my love..
aiya i think my ehem sporty class lost. haha.
my chemistry test. i guess more than half of it?!
seriously. and the almost full marks person just sitting next to me.
tsk.
swimming pt.
haix. they practised things i suck at.
so i was watching them do instead.
captain's ball:)
it somehow compensate for me not playing floorball.
it's best to keep luca on your side cos he works wonders as a defender.
haha. when he jumped, he's most likely taller than the captain.

what we could have been, 2:45 pm.



MAJESTIA!

it's worth the ten bucks:)
so nice and cool.
i like a weekend in new york.
and i'm in love with the saxophone:)
haha. damn cool but if i learn i think it will sound like crap.
the tuba quartet is funny and cute.
yourall did well!

what we could have been, 2:19 pm.
Sunday, 21 March 2010

Anything is enough to set me off again.
I dont know what's wrong with me.
When i stop, i will start again. i dont want that to happen.
Toki wo tomete.

what we could have been, 9:02 pm.



they are not my favourite girl group but i like this song of theirs.
run devil devil run run~

what we could have been, 7:08 pm.



I LIKE HER HAIR:)

what we could have been, 6:16 pm.
Saturday, 20 March 2010

I regretted saying that. But it's too late to take it back. Sometimes, i really hate it when i talk without thinking and wont shut up when i already say something wrong. It is until i can think clearly then i realise what i have done.

what we could have been, 11:24 pm.

So little time yet so many things to do. Seriously, chemistry is my worst subject! Why? Why did i take it?! Someone tutor me from the basics. It's embarrassing how little i know of chemistry although i took it for at least 2years! Ah. I'm telling myself tomorrow i will study. Tomorrow i will revise. That's Crap because i have been saying this for 2.25 years. How do i change this mindset of mine?
Ah. And I'm envious! I still dont know how to plunge! Stupid! I am such a lazy bum who wants to take shortcut for everything. I'm so envious!
Now i like the ella drama because the happy part is next week. Only one day left of the holiday with no homework done, going out tomorrow and the want to watch drama?!
My life is doomed.

what we could have been, 11:09 pm.
Friday, 19 March 2010

Oh my. I know everyone has been saying this but it hasnt really hit me yet. Gosh, the holiday is almost over! I havent start on my homework and try to catch up on my studies thanks to my stoning, daydreaming and sleeping in class. I tell myself i must do something today. And i end up sleeping for the whole morning, using the com for the whole afternoon and watching television for the whole evening and night?! Okay, someone slap me!
I was feeling bored surfing the net and went to investigate why some of my classmates love manga so much. I was looking through the list when i saw absolute boyfriend. I was like eh no harm reading it and was addicted to it. That's why i was using the computer for so long and when my mom asked me about it, i was like I'm reading an online storybook. Sorry, it's a white lie after all. Okay, so i finished reading it. And the ending kind of sucks but I'm open to reading more now:)
The problem with me and reading is that i cant stop when i start! Ah. I'm dead.

what we could have been, 9:58 pm.
Wednesday, 17 March 2010




chun i love your hair!
haha. jae looked dazed at the start like he just woke up from his nap backstage.
jae is so freaking thin! and hot obviously:)
min seemed happy. he kept smiling like he kept dancing wrongly or sth.
haha. jun was singing rather seriously for summer dream.
but he smiled halfway. That's the way man!
yun's dancing is fab:)
chun's rap is cool!
i missed them.
esp jae's smile:)
they are so cute near the end of summer dream!!
jun did horizontal dance.
the others followed.
then he did this retarded jumping from side to side dance.
jae was like trying to stop laughing.
then no choice danced that too.
jun then did this weird punching dance.
the rest except jae followed.
jae kicked jun's butt and woah-ed to the song at the right time:)
haha.

what we could have been, 2:35 pm.

cca overnight camp in school.
it doesnt even feel like a camp.
we had training though.
i tried my best in trying to absorb but to no avail.
sorry esp to the sound system mentors.
they tried so hard to teach but i messed up so badly for the fake concert.
the fake concert is so funny.
there's performances for concerts right?
so the seniors just act as performers.
the dance was err..
freddie is funny.
my group had to do the sound but since we messed up big times, the speakers dont have sound.
freddie had to perform harmo band solo.
and he sat a metre away from the mikes.
there's no sound broadcasted out.
he carried his chair dejected off the stage after performing a while.
we were still trying to find out what's wrong.
sorry, i still dont know how to patch.
then we saw the performer walking off with his chair.
we burst out laughing although we were frustrated.
there's lots of traps set for my group.
and we practically jumped into all?
the light system.
gosh. we know what to do but we just anyhow press?
then deleted the preset-.-
lol. everyone laughed when they heard about that?

We watched movie on the first night.
cool or what?
which camp allow movies?
less than 20 people sitting in the pt with the capacity of 800 people?
it's like in a cinema?
just no popcorn.
saw other camps washing toilets, running about?
our group names are big mac and french fries?
haha. hungry people:)

didnt have a good night's rest though.
whose phones kept ringing?!
i kept waking up.

the captain's ball with limes, tomatoes and cabbage was fun.
haha. though it was messy.
and the cabbage was bald with only its heart? after game.
haha. water bomb was fun too:)
attackers and defenders.
haha. attackers are the most soaked.

went out for dinner after the camp.
haha. walk walk after dinner was such a failure.
the guys want to go av one.
but in the end didnt go in cos the place looked too classy?

haha.
it depends.

what we could have been, 2:10 pm.

I'm really a jinx sometimes.

what we could have been, 1:39 pm.
Sunday, 14 March 2010

I hate this feeling. This feeling of having butterflies in my stomach. I feel uncomfortable. I'm worried. What if.. What if i cant? I really want to but wishes dont always come true.

what we could have been, 11:33 pm.
Saturday, 13 March 2010

Jerry's and ella's so cute and funny acting together:)
sometimes (ehem) Taiwan drama can be nice:)

what we could have been, 11:20 pm.
Friday, 12 March 2010

Friday, the supposed day for vog.
i finally understood this morning the information i received yesterday.
gosh. talking about slow.
full day today:)
but i want vog too.
had a rather good view of the cheerleading performance.
haha:)

ursa cheer. yourall did a good job.
seriously:)
i know yourall put in a lot of effort.
esp amanda!
maybe there's some kind of unfair play going on.
hmmm. cos in the morning, like 7 plus, my friend said that lynx confirmed win?
cheer up, okay? :)
ps: i think it's the ursa audience's dying enthusiasm that's the problem.

our buddy is going back today. a bit sad to see her go off.
hope we still keep in touch:)

try to find people to go eat lunch with us.
it's the hardest thing on earth.
fang ning, haziq, cheryl, Andrew have training.
yi meng, samuel have science research.
those two liars. okay, i dont know why they are given the nickname.
but khadija gave it to them so ya.
there's some ip outing which took out quite a few people from my class?
there's also some kind of PRC activity which took out more from my class?
oh, house comm-ers?
and apparently some people just cant come?
something funny happened.
the two who ehem have science research were going off.
so yi meng was looking back and waving.
livia was giving THE stare.
he looked at her and smiled (erm i dont know) funnily.
samuel behind him was like fed up with him or sth.
and he threw the chocolate wrapper at his face.
yi meng was taken aback.
the people who are supposed to be pissed off with them burst out laughing.
yi meng was damn pissed and stuffed the chocolate wrapper down the samuel's back.
martin who was finding excuses to go back to sleep, was not sleepy then.
who knows what's samuel's thinking? haha.
when they went off, yi meng was watching his back.
haha. damn funny.
so only the miserable few went for lunch.
and sorry, Darren.
make you drop off at parkway.
called you to meet at ice cream chef.
and when you ran from parkway to st pat, we told you ice cream chef is closed and only opens at 1pm.
martin was asking,"okay, do you want to hear the good news or the bad news?"
there's a debate and we said bad news.
"ice cream chef is closed."
we groaned then brightened up and asked, "what's the good news?"
"oh, Darren is with us:)"
we groaned further and decided to go to parkway.
Darren's jaw dropped.
i feel damn bad.
Livia, you gave him the idea to run from parkway to school, you should feel more guilty?
eating and telling of ghost stories?
went to walk around and decided to sit down.
was gossiping.
seriously, it seems to have become my favourite past time.
gossiping about the Livia and her domo-kun.
that rum and raisin ice cream is the most gross r&r ice cream i have ever eaten.
eww.

what we could have been, 7:32 pm.
Thursday, 11 March 2010

There's vog tomorrow. I feel happy though i'm not taking part in any activity. I really want to join. I dont mind captain's ball or floorball:) I think i'm feeling this way because there's no studying tomorrow? i hate studying for those who still dont know that fact?
I realised i still like playing with a dslr. Okay, maybe i really should consider buying one even though it's quite expensive?
Oh my, i almost have a heart attack knowing something. Thank goodness it's a false alarm? Who's the informer again and that very ehem reliable source?

what we could have been, 8:57 pm.
Wednesday, 10 March 2010

I felt like i had been brought back to the dark side of my primary school life.

what we could have been, 9:22 pm.

I felt like i have been brought back to the dark side of my primary school life.

what we could have been, 9:22 pm.

gosh. slv video.
i looked crappy in it..
hope no one sees it!

bao-eating contest yesterday was funny.
li yang was going around finding someone to challenge.
yi meng agreed and was actually wanting to stuff it into his mouth.
haha. andrew beat him.
and li yang ended up eating lots of bao.
almost choking.

i cant remember anything memorable to blog.

i'm looking for a blogskin.
open to suggestions:)

what we could have been, 8:48 pm.
Monday, 8 March 2010

My ct sure knows how to stab someone in the heart with her language.

what we could have been, 8:52 pm.
Sunday, 7 March 2010

A crazy headache is causing me lots of pain and torture. It makes me want to hit my head against a wall.

what we could have been, 5:00 pm.
Saturday, 6 March 2010

okay yesterday i wanted to blog but i typed so much, everything disappeared.
tsk.
typing a shorter version of yesterday.

miss jae on the bus to school.
haha. miss his laughter mostly.
tsk. it's jerine's fault?

lessons were alright.
physics. pe. pw. chemistry. end at 1:20pm :)

physics.
someone was acting gay?!
amanda drew a cartoon of khadija sleeping and drooling a river of saliva?
didnt do my homework as usual.
so dont know what he's talking so was doing my "chemical report".
to hand up to my "chemical rep"?

pe.
2.4km run?
i was damn tempted to stop and walk.
but i didnt:)
supposed to do inclined and standing broad.
but didnt cos something cropped up.
ehem.

pw.
we kept changing ideas?
painting the grand stand?
decorating the void deck?
band session?
i dont know.

chemistry.
those who know me probably know it's a mystery to me?
D7 does not come for nothing?

went out for class lunch.
funny session.
and the guys are showing their gayness?
martin became amanda's son.
when he's older than her?
haha. personality test is funny.
the monk sat beside the playboy.
haha.

went out with ex av friends><
bluff that we finished eating and wanted to go off already.
jin was like huh wait for me eh i am hungry eh.
we were laughing.
rj too stressful for you?
haha.

once bitten, twice shy.

what we could have been, 10:58 am.



haha. cute young guy:)

i realised something.
from 1march to 4march, i will be the same age as him.
haha. but still ..
he's actually roughly one year old younger than me?

what we could have been, 10:45 am.
Friday, 5 March 2010

It's not me! It's her! *Point to my right* Haha.

what we could have been, 10:52 pm.
Thursday, 4 March 2010

you will probably think i'm so shallow.
always laughing at stupid stuff.
and being happy over stupid things.
someone commented that my laughter is irritating.
that's a sensitive issue.
cos i think my laughter is irritating too.
but i cant change it.
i really want to learn how to change into a nicer sounding one.

some people in my class tried arm wrestling. pepsi cola. hand slapping. tap tap.
damn funny. with amanda's and fang ning's pro hand slapping, the guys raised white flags.
people in my class are seriously talented.
grade 8 or diplo for piano?
at least top 20 in ip(aka smart people)
i dont know. so many 6pointed.
and stupid people like me is going to die in here! >< >< ><

there's mock nafa tomorrow.
i'm going to die with this stupid injured arm of mine.
and my pathetic stamina-.-
and lousy legs strength.

what we could have been, 8:14 pm.
Tuesday, 2 March 2010

I seemed like a pretty happy person. Everyday posts seem to be so happy.
I seemed to be coming down with something. Kept sneezing non stop. Unless it's someone cursing me?
Dance people can go Italy! Lucky! I saw a particular guy does popping this mornings. Damn cool.
It's like he got no bone in his hands. The wave he did was like 0.0 seriously?!
My class loves camhogging? When they see a camera, all kinds of poses appear.
The discussion topic made some guys in our class gay! One guy hit the other guy's butt. That guy who's being touched move his hand along his butt and said sexy in this feminine way. We were laughing like mad.
And that same guy tried to dance and almost slipped and fall? So funny.


Am i still hiding the real me?

what we could have been, 9:06 pm.
Monday, 1 March 2010

Monday.
need to go school early for some campaign.
livia was blur and thought lessons start at 840. So she was late. But no one caught her?
break was rather late and i was hungry after 2periods. Imagine lasting for 6periods straight with a empty stomach. Was not able to concentrate.
break was rather funny. Some of us are hosting scholars. And our 2nd most perverted person in our class is also hosting. She intro most of us properly. The poor introduction for some people was praised. And i intro to the scholar who are the most perverted in our class. Haha.
after break was 3periods of fun, fantastic and fascinating math.. Zzz.. And i became very high cos of gossiping about livia's scandal. and Amanda wants to know about it so livia said we are talking about the scandal between Amanda and the toilet bowl. And haziq claimed that he heard weird sounds coming from the cubicle. And he woo-ed and ah-ed. We almost collapsed laughing. I asked aloud what he is doing at the female toilet. And call him sick. He was like trying to cover up that the weird noise can be heard from outside the toilet?
Then Andrew was Shitting cos he doesnt understand or Sth. And livia asked him why she is hearing lots of Shit from him. He said he never Shit yesterday. That's why he's shitting twice the amount today? I cracked up at that. You can see how high i was. And we are trying to carry out a conversation without being interrupted but it was proven to be impossible. We was interrupted by legs on our chairs, people asking for tissue, people asking us to help pick up their stuff or crushed paper thrown by childish classmates. Then lessons end. But had pbL to do. Haix.

i will pretend i dont know anything though I'm pretty freaked out. Cheer up okay? :)

what we could have been, 9:06 pm.

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